My New Home

Here it is...my new blog. It's still a work in progress. Been through a lot lately. Wasn't able to do everything I wanted on the site yet, but it's a start. I put a few of my most popular posts from this blog on there for you all to enjoy. I will now post all future blogs on this new site. I hope you all enjoy! Thank you again for reading.

http://musingsofmariposa.com/myblog/

Thank You All

I know it's been a while since I posted. But quite a few things have happened in my life recently. I got really busy- had to serve as a juror on a trial! That put me so behind that for the next two months I had to play catch up with not only work but life in general. I was amazed to find out how much I actually do on a day to day basis. It wasn't until all my responsibilities were put on hold so I could go into court daily that I realized I am a busy lady with many challenges. Sure, I had to put things on hold- but that doesn't mean life stops when things get overwhelming. Time keeps ticking and things pile up. I'm finally getting back into the groove :)

Then I met some new interesting people that made me question everything I've been doing in my life the past 5 years. It kind of forced me to look at my life and figure out what it is I really want. I'm happy to say that I now know for sure what would make me happy in life.

This past week I had a little health scare. Nothing major. But it made me realize that I'm not Superwoman and I need to slow down. But I'm still here and I'm still working on my new site! I wanted to have a few posts on my site before I shared with you all but that is not going to happen. But this weekend I will post the link to my new site on here so you can all check it out. I know a lot of you have been waiting patiently. Thank you for all the kind, wonderful e-mails I've received lately. They keep me going. It's nice to know I have an actual audience out there that is interested, gets what I am saying and that I can help. I love to hear about all of you who are just starting out and exploring. It's lovely to know that my words have been encouraging and helpful. I hope they continue to be :)

Let me go and write at least one post before I open my new blog up for you all. I'll be back soon.

A New Home

When I first started my blog, I had no idea people would even be interested in my writing. I just saw it as a journal. A way to get my feelings out on paper so I could sort through them. I started blogging as a way to get advice from fellow kinksters. I thought if I put my experiences out there and asked questions, I was more likely to get answers than if I kept my writing hidden in a journal in my nightstand. So I started my blog! It wasn't until later that I realized my blog was being used as a learning tool for some. That wasn't my intention at ALL when I started!

Who Really Keeps Resolutions?

I sure as hell don't. I've never really been big on resolutions. But I do believe in starting each year out fresh. So I chose motivations for the year rather than making resolutions. This year I have three major motivations that I believe will push me to become a better, more rounded individual. Three things that I guess you could say I know are my weaknesses and need to be worked on. So here are my goals, my motivations for the year.

Sub Space

We've all heard of that magical head space a sub can experience while in a scene. For me it's so magical, I can't even begin to describe it. But you know Doms! They HAVE to know every detail. Pretty much every Dom I have had the pleasure of submitting to has asked me the same questions, "what does it feel like? How do I get you there? What goes through your mind during that time?" Anyone who has experienced sub space, you know how difficult it is to describe. It's honestly something you truly have to experience to GET it. But I will try my best to put the magic into words.

Amorous

Amorous: inclined or disposed to love.

Love:

           -A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

           - A feeling of warm personal attachment, or deep affection.

           - Sexual passion or desire.

 

What! The woman who is even afraid to admit that she’s capable of feeling emotions is talking about one of the strongest emotions a human can feel? Yep, I am! I’ve actually been questioning if I truly am polyamorous. I look at the definition of poly and I don’t fit it exactly. Then I look at the definition of monogamous and I don’t fit that either. Which leaves me to wonder……what the hell am I then?! Damn labels :p

Trust.....

By far the most important thing in a D/s dynamic. Second to that is communication. I figured before getting into the naughty, juicy tidbits about my fun with J- I'd actually discuss the reason behind the naughty fun. The reason that I can let go and do the things I do.